Wednesday, September 17, 2008

A Mommy Moment

I'm having a Mommy Moment...

I'm sitting here at my desk right now looking over the edge at my twins playing around on the floor with my business materials, products, packaging stuff, business cards flung all over the floor, and I'm wondering where has the time gone. Just a year ago, they were sitting in my office but jumping around in little jumperoos, spinning around in little exersaucers.....sucking on their fingers. My heart is breaking a tiny bit. I've been very disciplined about being a mom first and not getting wrapped up in business and other things. So I know I have no guilt from that. But wow...something just slapped me across the head today. I know I'm blessed...but there's a little part of me that's sad that every day is a day that is going by that all five of my kids are growing up and preparing to move on.....oh, that just hurts. Ouch! I want them to all stay here with me. Even my teenagers! I adore them and just want everything to stop moving so quickly....I want to keep their sweet little spirits right at home with me. Do they have to grow up? Do they have to get lives of their own? Do they have to move away and leave me and become productive amazing adults? I know the answer...don't tell me. Okay....deep breath. All is well. I guess I'll just keep snapping the pictures and writing the stories because I don't want any of it stop. I don't to forget how I feel.

5 comments:

Peggy said...

I was just thinking the SAME thing recently - and feeling quite sad. I have twins too and they are 15 months now, they are my last babies... *sniff* *sniff* and now they are not really "babies" any more. I can't even imagine my house without my kids in it. :(
But we can't stop time!
Gee - I probably didn't make you feel any better. :)

Vered - MomGrind said...

I know how you feel. I think all parents feel this way. I also think that for non-parents too, there is the sense that time goes by really fast. It's scary.

Denise said...

Tara have you ever heard the song let them be little by lonestar. Grab a hanky!

Jennifer said...

Look at those cuties! That picture is priceless - with them on the sofa together in their diapers. They look very comfortable with one another. So cute!

Jen
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Tara said...

Yep, I agree with you all....time just flies by! Period. We have to just make the most of every single minute! Most of the time I don't second guess any part of it...I do enjoy and embrace life to its fullest, but there are those weak moments when it just hits like a brick.